Frustrating

This has been one of those weeks with very little progress, as far as the writing goes. No life rolls or anything like that either, just no time and/or energy for it. And that’s with my adrenal fatigue being better lately.

For example, DH and I went out for dinner for our date night, as we do every week. We did our usual: go to a bar and grab something to eat, play trivia, and hang with friends. It was a good time. But I don’t get home from work until around 6, and barely had time to change clothes and do my after work routine before we left. We didn’t get home until after 10, and by then, I was too wiped out to write. I know, writing is just sitting at a computer and making stuff up, but that takes mental energy, and my fatigue is mental as well as physical.

The day after that, we finally got in all the rent checks from our apartments, so I had a good couple hours’ worth of paperwork to do in preparing the deposits. And after that was done, I had food prep to do, as I’m doing a cooking day today. This was also a work day, so by the time that was finished, it was again 10PM, and I was beat.

Yesterday was Saturday, and you’d think I’d be able to come up with some time to write. But noooooo, I had errands to run, some of which DH couldn’t do or he would have. Then I had to finish a few food prep things I didn’t do the night before. After that, I had two loads of laundry to do–normally, I do that on Sunday, but I’m cooking today so that won’t work. Then I spent about an hour doing my weekly Home Blessing, and just general tidy up because we had friends over for dinner. We had a great time (and some great food, which DH fixed), but by the time I’d cleaned up and our guests left, it was–you guessed it–10PM and tired.

I forced myself to spend 15 minutes or so writing, but it wasn’t fun or easy, because I was so tired. So this week, instead of the ten scenes I’d hoped to edit and fix? I got one and a half done. So frustrating!

StarNomadWhat I’ve been reading: I did have time to read, as that’s something I can do when I’m tired–it doesn’t take much mental energy to enjoy someone else’s creative work. This week I read Star Nomad, by Lindsay Buroker. I’ve been meaning to try her books for some time now, and this one’s the first by her I’ve read. It was a really good, fun, science fiction adventure. If you like Firefly, this is a must-read, because it really reminded me of that (though not in a rip-off sort of way).

I also finished a very long, nonfiction history book by my friend from high school, the one who gave me a copy of “my” yearbook for my birthday. He has not been able to find a publisher for it, and I’ll grant that it’s a niche topic (military aviation history), but it was very well-written and mostly kept my interest. I say “mostly” because it went into exhaustive detail–but I am not the primary audience for this book, and I believe those who are, will love this level of detail. I’ve been reading this book on my treadmill for the past six months, and I only use the treadmill when the weather’s too cold, hot, or rainy to walk the dog, so it’s taken a while. I am trying to get him to self-publish it, though he has a bit more work to do for that (finding pictures and getting permission for them, getting a Foreword written by someone known in the field, etc.).

ROW80Logo175ROW80 Update: As noted above, I didn’t even come close to meeting my goals last week. And this week doesn’t look to be much better, as I have a lot going on. So I’m going to shoot for getting one scene fixed/revised. Anything more than that will be a big win.

What about you–do you get frustrated when you don’t have the time (or energy) to do the things you want? What’s the one thing you don’t sacrifice? Have you read any good books lately? And whether or not you’re participating in ROW80, how are you doing on whatever goals you may have? Please share in the comments–I’d love to hear from you!

Jennette Marie Powell writes stories about ordinary people in ordinary places, who do extraordinary things and learn that those ordinary places are anything but. In her Saturn Society novels, unwilling time travelers do what they must to make things right... and change more than they expect. You can find her books at Amazon, Barnes & Noble, Smashwords, Kobo, iTunes, and more.

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  1. Man do I know that feeling. Sometimes I have 2 or 3 weeks in a row where I feel like I’m constantly busy but not accomplishing anything. This week; however, was not one of those weeks for me. I started writing a new book (after spending waaaayyy too many weeks editing a different one) and that’s giving me energy to keep going. I love when I get that momentum.

    And, I managed to finally read your book, which I wrote reviews for on Amazon and Good Reads. I wasn’t able to find the Good Reads one but I know the Amazon one went live. I hope the other one did as well. And, thanks for giving me the opportunity to critique it. I liked it, but I didn’t really understand what was happening until a few chapters in. I caught up though.

    Anyway, have a great week. Try to get some rest and the other stuff will fall into place.

    Patricia Rickrode
    w/a Jansen Schmidt

  2. I’m judging a writing contest and it has frustrated me because I expected certain things and didn’t get them. Not sure I want to do this again. It’s making me grumpy!

  3. Frustration and I are best buds. NOT. I have had constant life-interuptus since October of last year which means I’ve not reached any goals for months. I’ve got really minimal goals now and that’s helping me appreciate what I AM getting accomplished. I think you’re wise to adjust your goals and figure that more than that is a big win. As someone said above, with time, it will all fall into place. Here’s to having lots of big wins this week!

  4. Ii get frustrated all the time Jennette! Frustration is my middle name. And because of my adrenal fatigue, my writing has suffered. I go days without a written word because you do have to have some kind of energy to write. Mentally I am zapped. So when I do finally have some mental clarity, I am thrilled to be able to write. But I get discouraged because it comes so slowly. Live is teaching me patience. So I hear ya girl. Just take it one day at a time. That’s all we can do. And enjoy each part of the process. 🙂

  5. Patricia, yay on starting a new book! And thanks so much for reading and reviewing mine. I haven’t put it up on GR yet – I’ll have to do that when I get a chance. Have fun with your writing!

    Stacy, when our expectations as readers aren’t met, we all get grumpy! And judging contests is a lot of work, often worth it but not always.

    Lynette, good to see you here again! I noticed you haven’t blogged in a long time, now we know why. I hope things settle down enough for you to get back to your writing soon. And thanks for stopping by!

    Karen, you know exactly what I’m talking about. Why, even when I do get a few minutes (after 10PM) I just don’t have the energy to do the writing. It is so slow, and you’re 100% right, all we can do is one day at a time. While I wouldn’t wish this on anyone, it’s good to know I’m not alone!

  6. Writing is the one thing I always try to make time for, but I do have some health issues, and sometimes my energy level is lower and I have to adjust my goals. For a while I was writing 2,500 words a day, but then my energy went down and I’ve had to change my goals. I try to set smaller goals sometimes–say, 500 words, or 1,000–so that I don’t stop but can still meet my target. It’s hard to set a really high goal and then not be able to meet it, but if I can set a smaller goal like 500 words and then end up writing 750 words, that’s still 750 words I didn’t have when I sat down to write, and I get a feeling of not only reaching my goal, but exceeding it.

    Enjoy your week, Jennette!

  7. It seems like everytime I try to do something around web design, it stalls or I get sidetracked. Some of it has been trouble with a rental property that won’t end until the lease does. This week, it was the local web development app that won’t download. I keep pushing because the alternative is not to do it at all, which means failure for not even trying.

  8. I tend not to get frustrated…I come from a family that tends toward a very negative approach. Part of learning a new way of dealing with things led to learning to take deep breaths, use my sense of humor, and adapt.

    This week is challenging, in a challenging month. I might set aside my writing, or find it tricky to focus. What I don’t sacrifice is my family. Whatever else is going on, they are my priority.